Tuesday, January 20, 2015

First anniversary

One year ago today, at 3:15 p.m., I told them it was okay to remove the tube that was breathing for you.  I can't imagine anything in life will ever test my strength and restraint as those last hours did.  All I wanted was to beg and plead for your life, and instead, I was forced to surrender you, my son, to death. 


I am still wandering in the dark, my love.  Baffled and broken by what happened to you and the fact that I am still here, without you.  

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6 comments:

  1. UnknownJanuary 20, 2015 at 7:08 PM

    I'm just so very, very, sorry...

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  2. AnonymousJanuary 21, 2015 at 5:12 AM

    What a beautiful and touching picture, we can feel all the love and the sadness. I'm so sorry for your loss. :(

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  3. Meghan O'COnnorJanuary 21, 2015 at 5:20 AM

    still reading every word and aching for you- especially today

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  4. March is for daffodilsJanuary 21, 2015 at 10:06 AM

    Oh, that picture is heartbreaking. Sending you all so much love.

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  5. GretchenJanuary 25, 2015 at 5:04 PM

    Thank you, ladies, for your words of support.

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  6. UnknownMarch 3, 2015 at 3:18 PM

    Gretchen, this picture is so beautiful. With no words, it says it all. Zachary is so loved.

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