tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4909738916028961904.post7668395337545235664..comments2023-05-07T05:17:37.813-07:00Comments on Lost: boys and bearings: The day beforeGretchenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03910724060715591409noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4909738916028961904.post-46676515150311627422016-01-21T15:56:38.923-08:002016-01-21T15:56:38.923-08:00Yes, it makes sense. I feel angry at the medical s...Yes, it makes sense. I feel angry at the medical system reading your words. How terribly they failed. I can imagine the fact that this should not have happened only complicates your grief. How can you ever accept it, ever? So sorry. super chic momhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12412414174277745665noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4909738916028961904.post-87385682577109653892016-01-21T08:46:38.485-08:002016-01-21T08:46:38.485-08:00Thank you, Jen. Thank you, Jen. Gretchenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03910724060715591409noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4909738916028961904.post-18248672346616597982016-01-21T08:45:23.757-08:002016-01-21T08:45:23.757-08:00Thank you, Typhaine. I am also holding you close ...Thank you, Typhaine. I am also holding you close in thought as Paul's anniversary approaches. Gretchenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03910724060715591409noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4909738916028961904.post-29179356725807360282016-01-21T08:44:23.833-08:002016-01-21T08:44:23.833-08:00Thank you, Kim. One of the most difficult things ...Thank you, Kim. One of the most difficult things for me is that nature didn't decide Zachary's fate. Carelessness and negligence did. His illness was both preventable and treatable, and their response to the latter was much too late, triggering septic shock and the brain hemorrhage which stole my baby forever. We went from "feed and grow him and get him home" to "we need to remove his life support" in a matter of a few trauma-filled days. It was so unexpected, so senseless, that I couldn't get it to register as real in my heart. I am still baffled by all of it. So, as much as those words (from the female neonatologist) burn, and will forever, they might have been the first words that penetrated my inability to fathom any of what was happening to Zachary, if that makes sense. <br /><br />Your poor girl. I am so sorry Heidi suffered for all of her 17 days. It seems so utterly pointless. Hugs to you and thank you for your kind message on Zachary's anniversary. Gretchenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03910724060715591409noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4909738916028961904.post-81607823946632214342016-01-21T03:22:48.842-08:002016-01-21T03:22:48.842-08:00Gretchen,
While I am only once bereaved, I know ...Gretchen, <br /><br />While I am only once bereaved, I know the pain of making that decision to let go - it is the worst and haunts me too. Though I know consciously it would have been cruel to "keep her going - for another year or so". I too heard the doctors opinions. I too prayed. What a waste. Nature had decided. My daughter, had she lived, would have spent her short life hooked up to feeding tubes to her heart, catheters, suffer infections,organ failure, and possibly stroke. I bargained for God to take her. Don't make us decide. 17 days of trauma as her prognosis became more and more grim. <br /><br />I don't know why that Doctor said that to you. Of course Zachary knew you were his parents and loved him, perhaps not on a conscious but definitely on a spiritual level. The simple act of letting go to spare him prolonged suffering is the greatest act of love and selflessness a human being can give. You show you love him now and always. Zachary knows. B.W. Knows. Heidi knows. They must. <br /><br />I felt I knew the moment when my daughter's soul left her body, before it physically shut down. It makes me sob to think of that moment but gives some strange comfort too. <br /><br />My heart is here with yours in pain and longing. Kim super chic momhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12412414174277745665noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4909738916028961904.post-68880952989896064372016-01-20T11:59:52.114-08:002016-01-20T11:59:52.114-08:00Gretchen - I am so so sorry these words were utter...Gretchen - I am so so sorry these words were uttered and that you have to live with them, and the reality they carry.<br /><br />It is still daytime but after reading this, i felt the need to do something, however insignificant, so there is a candle burning here for Zachary.<br /><br />My thoughts are with you and your family. xoxAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4909738916028961904.post-10294063403909381952016-01-20T10:23:23.420-08:002016-01-20T10:23:23.420-08:00Oh, Gretchen. Your poor, poor baby. You and your f...Oh, Gretchen. Your poor, poor baby. You and your family are in my thoughts these terrible January days. March is for daffodilshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11287273786322029725noreply@blogger.com